Thursday, July 23, 2009

Forever In A Landfill

start the noise
put back the music
its not about artistic vision

I have seen
what you are missing
and its hidden beneath your covers

No room can't sing
Cant seem fight this echoing
No one around
Can't seem to find my way to the ground
I'm not hear to save you
Not when i cant save myself
please hear me out now
dont just shut me out
im here for you
but you keep me forever in a landfill

heres the bitch
no need for mother
its not about warm fuzzy roses

I don't know
what i could do
to make you see what you are missing

No room can't sing
Cant seem fight this echoing
No one around
Can't seem to find my way to the ground
I'm not hear to save you
when i cannot save myself
please hear me out now
dont just shut me out
ill be here for you
but you keep me
forever in a landfill

I'm not ready
to call it quits now
But i'm not willing to take this beating


Please hear me out now
Don't just shut me out
Ill be here for you
if only you would have me

Friday, March 27, 2009

I Miss You

I miss you. but i don't know if i should call you. everytime i see you it's because i called you. would it kill you? i dont know what to do. Send a message or text seems lame. maybe i really should just call you. im sick of hearing what i should do because i already know what that is. I should just cut you out and let that be that but i dont want to and i've always been kind of stubborn. i want things to go back to how they were but i feel like thats not what you want. you want to forget your past and all those in it and just move on into this new life with new people. So i don't know what to do so instead ill write a blog about it; basically talking to myself because you know that will achieve so much. i miss my friend but i feel like you just don't care. you dont want to see me. if you did you'd call. well this accomplished nothing

Saturday, January 24, 2009

My Thoughts On Yo;

I have you to thank for so much
more than you'll ever know;
without you id be fine;
id goto work, id see my friends
i'd go shopping and i'd go to concerts,
i'd find things to do with my time
but there'd always be something missing
i'd have no one to dream about,
no one to hold me when i cry,
there'd be no one who cared if i smiled or not.
so without you i'd be just fine
but then fineis all i'd be
i wouldnt be great, i wouldnt crave being awake
i wouldnt be anything.
i have you to thank for helping me live
i have you to thank for making me much more than fine

Friday, January 16, 2009

The Skinny Of It

A new year is upon us. People's lives are in full swing. And so is mine; granted im still at scotiabank and am no closer to knowing what i want to do with my life but i feel good. Th ings with friends are good andi ahve come to the conclusion that i would rather have the couple freinds i do have and know that they are true strong friends than have 3 dozen not so close friends who would be willing to sell me downthe river at any moment. No its good. What i have is great.

So i got paid i made a good contribution to my car fund. i am so stoked guys! i want my own vehicle so bad. I am savign fro a 2008 Green suzuki swift. hopefully i will be able to afford it but august .. what am i talking about of course i will i cant think in what ifs and hopefullys no trys just do i have to start thinking more like that and things will start to happen.

TOnight i am taking the little sis out for dinner and a movie we are going to see Bride Wars.



Have a great night peeps
MUCH LOVE

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Breaking it Down

so tell me what does it mean when you cant do anything. you sit uncomfortably on your bed in a tight bodice waiting for the call. the cal that says its on... the green light . you watch episdoes of gossip girl finding conections to your own life. Blairs Chuck is my Dane-Cook* except you know without the exsesive drinking and being a bit of a slut. but they both need you. i dont know where im going with this. but i guess im just thinking. thinking intype. thinking where everyone can see. i am happy. i am satisfied i just... need things to start unfolding; revealing themselves. i mean everyone says i have plenty of time to figure life out but when does that time run out. i dont want to one day be 27 and still working at scotiabank. i dont know anything. all i know is i want a family and preferably i would like that family with Dane-Cook*. i

Monday, January 5, 2009

SO dead

So i am at work and surprise surprise it is dead as anything.

So Dane-Cook's* friend Chuck-Norris* is going in a week to some army training thing and then he is going to Afganistan. Im really worried. He's a super nice guy and not to mention one of Dane-Cook's* Best friends ( if not the best friend he has). Im not sure what Dane-Cook* would do if something were to happen to Chuck-Norris*. I love my man and there fore i find myself loving his friends to. he will be in my prayers

Saturday, January 3, 2009

To disapear would be fantastic

To disapear would be fantastic.
just go away somewhere
Nowhere too drastic ;
just get away somewhere
BUt disapearing has its pitfalls
and in here lies the problem ;
not everyone thinks its such a ball
but it would heal all your problems.
to leave the one you love
well that woud be hard .
to fly away like a dove
that'd just be too hard .
to walk in another beaches sand
and leave everyone behind.
to disappear would be grand
but how could i leave you behind.

To The Men (oops i mean little girls) Who can Die

Kanine-Munchies*: previously in a blog entry i stated that i had appologiezed to this scum for mouthing him off... i dont care. actually i wish i hadnt appologized. I will not go into details because i dont know if Noel* wants me going into it onhere but all that needs to be said is that he is scum and a pansy and doesnt deserve the beautiful woman that is Noel* . Girlie if you read this i know you are scared for today but you are so much stronger than you even realize you can do this and my thoughts will be with you. i love you girl and im here if you need me.

Also I mouthed off flippers* bf on new years he is so rude and its odd how he only manages to muster up the balls to be an ass when Dane-Cook* isnt around gee i wonder why that is? could it be because Joe-Dirt is a scrawny dirt bag who couldn't hold his own with Dane-Cook* for a second. Ignorant hillbilly

amidst all these sum and dirtbags i find myself feeling ten times more lucky than ever. I have managed to find a man among dirtbags and scum. I love you Dane-Cook* thank you for being you. I find myeslf looking into his eyes even more in love then ever with this strong chivalrous man who makes me feel safe and loved and HAPPY! my god he makes me happy. LOVE

Much love

Long time

i recently had a certain someone point out i never use my blog anymore this is obvs true..i just find im too busy living and doing the things i want to dot o find time to blog.. That being said i have mass quantities of spare time at work so you might find the odd enw blog in here.

To catch up:
Dane-Cook* and I are still going strong.. i love him very much adn heloves me
i got him drums fro xmas, he got me tiffany's necklace
Noel*is still awesome and gorgeous
Emily-Haines* is still fabulous
we went to see metric in concert ont he 21st the same day Dane-Cook* left for xmas which left me feeling liek shit and a cry-ie mess. anyway he came back a day early to surprise me and its been all roses since.. New years has come and gone and i am determined to beat the January curse i shall not sucomb to it!