The Twinkle in Your Eye

So I had quite the meeting with Edward-Scissor hands* today. Needless to say it was completly pointless; for starters he opened with "I'm Gay" . So right there, right off the bat im like okay this is going to go no where. Anywho i was thinking how much i wish life was like a TV show. I mean if my life were like Buffy or Angel or Gossip Girl; well that would just be amazing. If i was a character in Gossip Girl i think i'd want to be Blair cause i mean she is a sweety but she knows how to handle herself. She's also a stone cold bitch when she wants to be. The only thing about Blair though is she does seem to be wound a little tightly. Another thing Blair has going for her ; Chuck Bass. She got with him in the back of a limo i mean HELLO i certainly would not complain about that. Nevertheless life isnt a TV show so i guess we just have to go on and live life as best we can. You know soak it up; the drama, the excitement, the bad times and the good times because they're all one big whole of this thing we call life. We need to experience everything we can and hold onto those experiences. Life isn't about what mark you get in school despite what teachers and parents may say; it's about the relationships you form there and the connections you make. It's about learning to live. Learning to deal. I mean i guess that's why it's so hard. Dealing isn't as easy as everyone says it is or makes it look i mean look at me. I'm a mess. I don't deal. I try and i try to put on this persona like im all cool with everything and dont get me wrong for the most part i am but there are those few certain things that im just having trouble dealing with. Life sucks sometimes but i am determined to work through that ultimate suckiness and hopefully I'll come out on top. I know that sounds totally lame but, what else can i do.