Wow it's like he knows you

You thought you were a hero
You played him well
He saves the day but not himself
You acted out the lover
Your finest part
Had all the lines but not the heart
Now look where we are

You're good intentions still remain in chains

broken

I think i figured out why it doesnt hurt. i feel like i shut off my heart. That's all i used to think with now i feel like all im using is my head, that's not good. i want my heart back thats what makes me me. the fact that i think with my heart and i wear it on my sleeve thats why this is so hard because your head can only take you so far and well the other half of me is shut off

Letter Unsent

SO heres the thing. I know youhave said in the past that you cannot read my mind. I know that fruserated you. So here goes nothing, i will tell you what is on my mind.
I miss you. I think about you everyday, and I do want you back. But more than that i want you to want me back. That being said if you came to me and said you want me back,... I need morethan that. I need to see it. Throughout this you have made me feel like I am not worth the effort of working on our relatioship, not worth forgiveness and just not worth your time. You need to show me I am worth the effort. I'm not asking for a grand gesture, like singing my name from the rooftops or even from set a bleachers. I think here persistance would be the key.
I know i have hurt you and it pains me evry day to know that. I am sorry and I am willing to mae it up to you but the in between stuff has to comefirst you have to want me back in your life before i can make it up to you. I love you Robert Grant.
If you have no desire to have me back in your life that is fine. Just let me know with absolute certainty that that is what you want. You asked for space, for time, i have respected those wishes and will continue to do so if that is in fact what you want. But know this if that is what you want, I will move on. And if I do you cannot be upset about that.
In the past months I have moved foreward Rob, but never moved on. You are still in my thoughts every day. My only fear is that a few years from now i will wonder, what if I just told him how i felt. So in order to prevent that I will not let my pride stand in the way of letting you know hwo I feel. If you reject me and this letter I will be sad, hurt but i will eventually move past that. I will be able to do so knowing that it is over completly and i did everything in my power to produce the outcome i desired. But i can only do so much. This is your decision Rob. I love you and I am willing to stand beside you whatever the road ahead may bring.