Raspberries

i love raspberries.. they are small enough that i dont have to cut them up i can just pop them in my mouth but they are not too small that i feel like i should have at least 4 in my mouth at once... i love the flavor so sweet with a tinge of sour and the color is just so deep and sexual :P... but really if you were to think of a color for sex just look at a raspberry its so succulent that you cant help it :P

anyway i thought id update everyone seeing as i just got back from hanging out with Emily-Haines*.. we went to Shirley-Temples* and Miranda-Lambert* was there we just kind of chilled and played with kitten... heinzkirkle, grandpakisinger, diesel, laquiesha.... kitty :P anyway it was good times and i think things with Emily-Haines* and i are fine but i cant help but feel like there is something still there that she is just pretending doesnt bother her and i unno could just be me being over worried or whatever... [all that is left of my raspberries is 3 that are too mushy to eat and look really gross]... anyway i really want to go to beach tomorrow... i unno ill see what Elmo* wants to do.. i havent heard from heard at all today but ill call her tomorrow when i get up to see whats going on

so sometimes this whole public blog thing makes me mad cause i wish i cold write everything i am thinking in it but i know there are people who read it and maybe they are things that some people shouldnt know or i dont necessarily want everyone to know... but yea so here i am censoring my thoughts in my own blog... pretty shitty.. sigh
one thing i will say that maybe i shouldnt but here it goes.. since that thing with Emily-Haines* i feel like i cant talk about Dane-Cook* at all with her and i mean shes my best friend i want to tell her about the stupid things we get up to or the romantic stuff he does and i just think yes tell me to shut up if im boring you but i mean... i dont know... i just wish i didnt feel this wall between her and i there i mean i dont want to have to censor myself but i know i should... i get it need to tone it down i really do get that but i mean he is obviously a big part of my life and a part i feel like im not allowed to share... raspberries.. i wish i had more